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It was Friday. I was heading back home after work.  Exhausted, just like tormented dude pissed off after having heavy dose weed joints. It was that much bad,   I can’t exactly points what made me hectic or agonized. Is it  too much work or less work? Credit cards? Bank loans? Lost love?  my inner peace gradually devouring  from the beginning of week and  culmination of all  tormented suddenly proclaimed on a Friday afternoon as a laureate.

I had one solid question. How can I bring  life back to me?  Will Drinking “old reserved Arrack” or calling my old girlfriend help me to bring peace.  Will there be enough money on my bank account to harmonize a hurricane like emotions ?

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In my right slow ripples of Indian Ocean condescendingly hide all  mysteries and beauty of infidelity relationships of men and woman traveling in this rusty train for years. Their unknown love stories will forever be unknown to their legal ones.  Is there a space in this deep ocean water for me to hide my long gone love story? Why her memory still troubling me. My attempt to kill those memories will mark as failed serial killer attempts.  I was failed killer for long years. Maybe I should  get help from a female inspector   ?  Maybe offer a contract to cute girl to deliver expectations.

As usual I whipped my eyes looking at unknown space through the window. Gloomy vast water surface remain silence as it wants to tease my inner peace.  After few minutes I saw a lady entering compartment carrying a two or three year old kid. She is a beggar searching for few more bucks from passengers traveling. Her thin pale appealing voice momentously starts to question my worries. When poor meets extremely poor, poor suddenly feel rich.  Ego has nine cat lives.  Am I having one now?

I had financial worries and she seems to have same in a different level. Her situation, A meal for dinner, place for sleep seems far painful than loss off a love or debits. Her little baby slowly makes slight noises. Ohh.. That kid was breathing. Still living.  Surviving in this shade place where devil propagate money by leading to an angels. Angels pay interest to live while devil built emperors.  That kid relentlessly hug mother seeking something not there with her.  It’s evident that Kid will dry out every inch of energy this mother has and she generously offer every single thing to the kid.

Love of a mother transcends boundless energy to a child.  Every one of us suffers different levels for missing emotional energy required for satisfaction. We often blame next girlfriends or boyfriends for the things did by previous ones. We hurt ourselves for missing someone mostly wanted. This woman missed her husband. Kid needs a father. Its amazing how worry comes uniquely to everyone’s life like a ghost you never know how bad or good it is. you only know worries keep troubling you from different faces.

The Indian ocean keeps all the worries and slowly sings never ending song.

May be this is only the start ….

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Time of My Life

Time is clocking. Every burning second only make our stay more vulnerable and riskier.  Amazingly our appetite to less enjoyable and stressful stuff  continues to grow faster. Our priorities have drastically changed. We started to allocate more and more time on earning & spending seeking happiness. Set all our energy, emotions, and targets to earn and save every penny by analyzing best buy supermarkets.  Unlike other animals our space for material value had overtaken our own human values. We started to reassess our strategies and goals based on suggested material values by advertising companies. We often benchmark happiness through materials we owned. Ironically increasing struggle to find peace and happiness is matter to most. Something wrong somewhere, it’s time to do a validity check of our plans.

What if we all celebrate every moment in life memorable and enjoyable way just like the last day you are living?  What if we only have to spend time on things we love the most? What if all of us can spent quality time with friends, families, traveling , helping  people, meeting cultures,  sharing love, play games, roaring among sports fans, dance even it looks stupid, smile until stomach hurts,  watch sunset  , sing   and spend our  limited time with someone you love.

Instead of all of above we had to spend considerable time of our life on learning how to survive. For an example It take more than twenty years to complete just general education and start  working in office rooms, virtual social networks, factories, in roads, battlefields . We spent best days of our lives in traffic,   shopping malls and hospitals. If you analyze a little more you would surprise how many hours you had to spend waiting in queues.


Our foundation understanding of happiness mentored by technology, economy, politics, business, power and eagerness to earn six digit salary and potential buying capacity. We missed critical aspect ‘human values’.

Isn’t it making our living increasingly complicated and unpredictable? The food with genetic modifications and the water with added chemicals to purify. Are we really serious about decrypting our creator’s codes? Or recreate our own.  Most of us believe in this modern life style. Fake happiness propelled based on top of   dissatisfaction and materials you own and want to earn.

What happen to us? Why we intentionally forget our values.   What happen to love, care, affection, sensitiveness, politeness, childlike nature and empathy for other? Isn’t it all values messed up in our busy schedules that prevent us from reaching peace in our mind? Isn’t it we burn our limited time on worthless materials and unwanted stuff searching happiness?

When you buy something, reassess your priorities. The money you earn, the materials you buy does not equal to your happiness, either you never will reach satisfaction or peace.  The profit you make or materials you bought are just a connection to vicious cycle which has only one direction, more dissatisfied and stressful life.

At least make effort to change your limited time more enjoyable and gifted one for you and your loved ones. Start think beyond materials and keep believe in human values. There is no better gift than peace and satisfaction in mind.

© Buddi Mathararachchi

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